speckofrel

hello :0 I am starting this project because I want an outlet to be creative and also this is an excuse to be comfortable with html. Admittedly this was mostly copied and manipulated from a template because I could not stand the initial bland look. I hope to explore this format more and get more comfortable and creative. I would love some contact from here with anyone that passes by. Email me at ikilledtheilluminati@gmail.com if there are any responses, before I figure out how to implement a comment box.

((01/25/2024))

Checking in after my first full week of school. I am currently taking thermodynamics and statistical mechanics, theoretical physics, electronics w/ lab, and state & local government (womp womp). I am having a good time with my classes so far and definitely need to make sure to keep up. There are a lot more girls in my classes too which make me feel more at ease, I don't feel like I will be judged as much. Now that I have classes going I want to get some side pages going so I can talk about some topics that interest me in my classes. I don't really have others to talk to about it so I think this will be a great opportunity for me to just...brain dump everything haha. I have also been going to the gym more and more so that is nice, i didnt go tn though which i am a bit disappointed in but it will be okay. Also, I joined the robotics club and next monday will be starting to make my own robot for battling, I am super excited. I also have been practicing my Arduino skills and made a cute light show. I will post the video here when I get the chance heheh. I think I am going to take the next couple hours of my night to work on other pages on this blog. I like having this here adn just knowing I have something that is mine, all mine. Making friends has been a bit hard but I think if I push through it will be fine. I hate my job and i dream about the day I can quit. I want to shove my 2-weeks notice down everyones throats and never put on an apron or hold a server book again. hahahahahahahahahahha yeah. That is really the only thing that is holding me together nowadays, the idea of never being a waitress again. you take some chocolate and some lobester and some eggs and some pie and then you mix it in your body and shit it all out lmao that is such a funny song. Okay anyways beeye.

((01/02/2024))

happy new years. Hoping for better opportunities and a stronger self. Wishing the same for all of those reading

((12/22/2023))

still here. Got through shit exams and am on christmas break. I hope that next semester is better. I have been feeling sort of nostalgic recently, maybe it is the christmas season? Ihave been really busy with work and trying to save money for my upcoming vacation. I got acrylics on for the firsttime in a while so please excuse my shitty spelling and spacing. I got a new pc! Ryzen 7 processor with about 12 gb of ram and uhhh its an asus. White just like how i like it and a new monitor instead of that shitty tv screen i was using lol. It is super nice and it just encourages me to work with it more. I hope to get a 3d printer too, I can make knick knacks. I hAaven't been able to work on this page much which sucks but I am hoping to get right back on it asap, I have been dedicating most of my time with Python. This is just mre for fun. I would love to have mre friends to game with and talk n discord with, it is just kinda hard to talk to people and ask them lol. If you are reading this and want to be friends, shoot me a messsage! my discord username is : animetiddy ..... Anyways I dont have much to say other than I feel likeI am always racing the sun before it sets.. I just feel rushed all the time and feel guilty if I don t maybe one day this will all pay off bt I dont know what 'paying off' looks like for me.

((11/15/2023))

I finally was able to get some more work done on the 'about me' page! Specifically the little about me. box. I still have a lot of desin to take care but overall I am glad to get the format how I want it. It took me forever but that's just the name of the game. I hope to work on it some more tomorrow after my class and before work. Personal: Today is my brother's birthday so hooplah for that. I also am getting ready to leave for a lil thanksgiving vacation which I am super excited about. Will update more soon, right now I am trying to find something to eat for dinner and waiting for the physics meeting to start.

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((11/12/2023))

No updates on this specific page but I am in the works of my 'about me' page. I have taken the time to try and customize more of the format and have been getting more familar with html and css. I also found out what blinkies are and im obsessed haha. Afterwards I want to make another page for my schoolwork and any other physics/academic topics that I am interested in at the time. I am really glad I found this website and am excited for the content I can make, as I have been feeling a bit sad/static recently and so it is nice to have something to look forward to. I think this will be nice to put into resumes or something to show off what my abilities are as I am trying to find internships right now hahahaha. I also need to makea. scroll box for this box. The about me page that is in construction is able to be accessed in the 'about me' link but like i said,,, in progress :P okay thx bye

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((11/09/2023))

This is my first major update to this whole thing. I got a pretty cute vibe going on here until I get more comfortable adding more stuff, I really likedsome of the websites saw on the front page. I also am about to find out how I can put some music on here, I used to be pretty good at this whole thing back in my tumblr days lol but it has definitely been a while since dabbling in customizing websites:p Omg I wanna change cursor as well, definitely put it on my to do list. I wish I was 10 right now playing with Monster High Dolls, that would be nice.

Okay just my final update, I was able to add a cute cursor! I am generally happy with how everything looks for my first day but I definitely want to do more customizing. The changing the sizes of the gif was kind of a pain in the ass but I am glad I figured it out. :3 k bye